Philip, you don't know how struggle I am to forget you. I feel like dying everyday...I get so depressed thinking of you. Tell me, what should I do ? Now that you are gone and I don't have any idea how to reach you, even if I can, do I have strength to contact you ? Would you accept my invitation ? Do I dare to tell you how much I love you ? Would you be put off ?

I couldn't imagine how you freak out after hearing my confession.